short entry.

honestly, i dont care much for summer. its okay if it turns out to be a bad summer, it's still just days gone by. summer is just the time to relax and you have more time to do more things, but if it doesnt turn out the way i want it to, thats okay. i wanna be sucked up and be so busy that i dont have to deal with things. i wanna run away haha. thank god i am working, i can block out people so that i can't affect them. i dont wanna hurt people, i really dont. i really dont wanna bother people too and this way, they cant hurt me. people arent all that bad, some actually impact my life in the greatest ways possible, but i just bother them. so here i will stay, isolated from everybody. if i could flip the world upside down, i'd do it. i want people to see how life is upside down. they would view everything in a different way and maybe they'd make better choices. why arent people happy? i think they make themselves sad; just because things dont go the way you want them to doesnt mean everything is horrible. yeah, sometimes i am angry at life, but i dont ever really hate it, otherwise i wouldnt be here now would i? something is keeping me alive and i'm living my life. even when things go right, people find a way to turn it around and find every possible flaw there is; people make themselves unhappy. when something bad happens, go ahead and mourn but try to see things in a happy way. i am being the biggest hypocrite, but this is something i really believe in.