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dear secret santa :)

nobody@vox.com(SHEREEsweetTHANG(:) — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 16:41:23 -0800

tehehehheehheheheeheheh i WILL find out who you are :) and ima be as specific as i can so here

1. http://www.charlotterusse.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3227303&cp=2744997&ab=Aspot_CDresses&view=all&parentPage=family
-(in blue size large)

2. http://www.charlotterusse.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3227302&cp=2744997&ab=Aspot_CDresses&view=all&parentPage=family
-(in black or turquoise size large)

3. http://www.charlotterusse.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3327369&cp=2745080.2887804&view=all&parentPage=family
-(in purple or black large)

4. http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=fab_finds&product_id=2055052953&Page=1#
-(in black/royal or black/teal large)

5. http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=fab_finds&product_id=2055286314&Page=1#
-(in purple gray or jade large)

6. http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=fab_finds&product_id=2055104424&Page=1#
-(in charcoal large)

- update more later!

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falling in and out of love

nobody@vox.com(lalala JOANNA) — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 18:17:01 -0800

"i love you, but do you love me?"

so it's blogging time! my birthday was the past weekend, i'm finally 17! here's to watching rated R movies legally! so on SUNDAY: had dinner with my family at the Little Sheep. it was DELICIOUS! i love hotpot =) and my parents gave me money to buy my boots but i decided to save it instead for relationship reasons ): who would've though having a boyf would cost so much money lol. MONDAY: i had my birthday dinner with my "rolldawgs" lol at tofu house and winnie sheree and tyson! it was a nice dinner and i looked uberly cute of course. LOL then my boyf jeffrey came and gary. they ditched math class -_- such bad kids. then afterwards me, jen, gary, andrew, and my boyf went back to his house and counted down my bday. when the countdown was over gary and jeffrey walked into the room with a birthday cake and all. jeffreys mom came in and i was so intimidated to make a bday wish LOL i was like =O what do i wish for? but seems like my wish can't come true now. oh well, always next year wishes and the one i wished on TUESDAY! lol so on TUESDAY: my boyfriend took me to a secret location which ended up to be Santa Monica Pier =) we walked around the pier, then ate at bubba gump, then we walked around some more. he wantd to take me to the aquarium there but it was closed. it's okay though! i enjoyed my time there because i got to spent it with my boyfriend<3 then we were at the dock? or deck? idk what you call it and we watched the sunset and after the sun went down he told me those three little words; "i love you." and i swear i was in shock for the first couple of seconds and then i said "i love you too". and all was better =) he looked so cute with his smile, it was like our first date ALL over again. he had the butterflies and the jitters and i had the warm fuzzy feeling. i do love my boyfriend, but i'm just not in love, yet? but before we talk about this let me continue about my bday. then afterwards we had to leave around 5 to go back cause my dinner was at 7:30. dinner was cool, i felt overly dressed but it's okay because i am the bday girl LOL then they just HAD to cake me three times and afterwards we went back to davids house and i opened all my gifts. I LOVE THEM ALL, THANK YOU ALL!!!! WEDNESDAY: sheree baked me a cake! which i loved i swaer i love her baking lol i even told Linda on Friday that i hope sheree bakes me something haha and thanks for the webcam guys! i love it and i haven't been camera whoring THAT much but you know me haha. yep yep. i would like to thank you ALL who came, wished me happy bday, and all the gifts and love. i really do have the greatest friends, everyone else who says is are just fucking liars trying to compete with me. i'm a hater. LOL but yeah this was TRULY the best birthday i've ever had. i love my (best) friends and i love my camera and TAO 2008 HERE I COME!

iloveyou : now back to this topic.so this leads back onto my old blog asking if there really was a "waiting period" to say i love you. i mean we've known each other for over 5 years, we dated for 2 months and have been together for no longer than 1 month. i've asked everyone this question and everyone gives me the same response, " it all just depends how you feel." i do love jeffrey, i know that but why is it that i'm so shy about saying it? is it because i don't want it to wear off? is it because i don't mean it? (that is a lie lol) or is it just because i can't look at him straight in the eye and tell him "i love you." does the guy really need to be the first one to make all the moves? to ask her out, to get her number, to tell her how you feel and to say i love you. it's just 8 letters, 3 words, and 1 meaning that i find so difficult to say to my boyfriend. maybe i'm just overthinking this. what can be the right reasons to love someone? i asked him that last night and he said "because you have a unique personality and you can always make me laugh" or he said smile or idk he said something like that. then he asked me and it was so on the spot i couldn't think of anything. like i knew exactly why i like him but can love have the same reasons? i really did mean it when i told him "i love you too" i mean, why else would i say it? if you ask me now, i could think of reasons though lol. through more time, i'm pretty sure i can come up with 365 reasons why. i could say it easily to other people though but maybe that's because towards them i see it more as a friend way. yess indeed, more of a friend way. life is such a trip.

i told my sister about gary getting me the camera and jeffrey getting me the TAO ticket, she knows what's up lol. well yeah i believe Jeffrey and i can have a long lasting relationship. only time can tell

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Fine, this is my birthday "wishlist"

nobody@vox.com(Winnie) — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 19:01:16 -0800

this blog goes to jennifer since she wants to shop early.

fave colors; green, red, purple.
unless it came in a pretty color like maroon, teal,
dark blue, pink or w.e color is fine with me.. etc

random order
- Ipod Adapter/Charger!!! for my car. can i get it in a cool color :D but white or black is fine :D
- simple/cute or elegant clutches !
- Garu(with or without pucca) lanyard for my keys <---- not gonna lie its hard to find!!
- winter wear!!!! (cardigans, sweaters, scarfs ..)

- charlotte russe’s boots are cute <--- this is sorta expensive $30-40
- earrings/studs for my cartilage, I like tiny ones
- pimping out my car? Air freshener, hangy things, stickers? Anything is fine.
- a new cute casual dress :D

- cardigans! in plaid or solids

- CUTE HEAD BANDS!!!<3 with ridges on the bottom so they stay

- gift card for starbucks. so i can get a machiatto.
- dark skinny jeans size 5.

- long sleeves or solid tees! you know to layer and shit

- plain beanie caps

- Seafood tofu soup. Spicy or Extra Spicy with a side of rice please :]
- cute dress = http://www.charlotterusse.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3314333

- cute clutch ? http://www.forever21.com/images/back/52460440-02.jpg

something personal and thoughtful is cute.

size M in shirts. size M/L in sweaters/jackets or etc.

size 5 in jeans. size 8 in boots. STFU i got big feet :[

size M in bottoms.

honestly, I dont want anything for my birthday. if you really wanted to get/do something for me; take me to a ferris wheel and ride it with me.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNA JHANG!!!

nobody@vox.com(Winnie) — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 10:18:00 -0800

Bust a Mission, Missing Jenn :[

happy mother fucken birthday joanna hang!!<3333333

last night went to Joanna's dinner. I had fun and I hope she did too. Yeah, so sad. During dinner yesterday I got like the scared of my life. I was like eating and I turn around and I saw whats his face scared me. I think I scared him too =/ HHAHA Let me explain. I like saw this fob couple smoking and making out and the guy and I had eye contacted and I thought he went to the window to like stare so like i freaked out and OMG I was SCARED shitless. I was going to like flip the table and kick the window(assuming me kicking it will make him go away). Damn that was like imprinted in my mind forever. I'm sure I kicked Sheree or even Tyson and whacked Joanna or something. HAHA Anyways the "light show" was interesting. HAHA LADIDA ! BYE!

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remembering sunday

nobody@vox.com(Winnie) — Sun, 09 Nov 2008 11:05:46 -0800

gosh. what?.. how do i start this blog. i woke up happy, until i found out that my car was broken into. im sooo fucken sad :[ like i feeel like someone hates me and did it but i know that's not true. so i got a few stuff jacked but im still sad:[ im so glad i didnt leave dillons present in there cause i worked hard on it but his backpack got jacked. and i almost left mind in there :[ sorry for calling you over and over until you picked up and thanks for understanding<3 fk man i dk what to think you know. like i know its just a backpack and all but if it was like sheree' s or joanna or jennifer's fk i'll be fucken in tears . you know and calling them is hard enough to do. so calling dillon was a bitch. especially when he wouldnt pick up.. so like yeah idk im sad my ipod wire got jacked. fk right after i got my shit fixed for the ipod -___- LAME anyways yeah ladia ima goshoping later with sheree :D then i gotta go cleann upppp aarons floors like fucken cinderella. did i fucken tell you guys i was likefucken cinderella yesterday he made me clean up soo much in my life. shittt mann! never done soo many chores in my life till yesterday and it was inthe morning tooo!!

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baby dont keep me waiting.

nobody@vox.com(Winnie) — Sat, 08 Nov 2008 16:38:00 -0800

don't keep me waiting on a call i'll never get.
ladia. idk what to write but i want to write. i'll write with my eyes closed and think what to say. just kidding then i'll just make a lot of typos. HAHA anyways yeah im boredand tired. and i wanna play tennis :[

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getting into you because i got to be your essential to survive

nobody@vox.com(Winnie) — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 19:17:49 -0800

idk everything about you gives me a headache. you're tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo complicated and self-centered.idk anymore. after all this i'm done. i dont know whether to help you or leave you. you have no idea how much i want to scream and yell at you. you dont know how you get my breathe stuck at my throat. i'm suffercating and theres nothing i can do. you choke me. you choke me to death. you put me in a chokehold. and i'm barely holding on. i want to break you. i want to just beat you the fuck up. i want you to reassurare me in things but all i get in return is giving you advice, HELPING you out. everything becomes about you somehow, some way. i want to put you in a chokehold just for you to listen to me. idk every since you started talking to her you've been such an asshole. do what you want cause lately i just dont care. or i try no to. but i cant help it. its what friends are for right. you look out for one another and always give them that shoulder. well i know this is selfish but my shoulder was always yours and all you gave me is letting me fall. and so i do. i fall through thin air. idk i've always felt this way but kept my mouth shut and here i am typing my feelings up into a bundle. and truely deep down i want you to read this. i want every word burn through your soul. maybe i'm OVERTHINKING things, but i cant help it. i can help but think and i can't help but wonder why we're like this. i can't help but THINK why not? ican't help think that maybe you'll change just a bit and be the better friend, i can never be. and then theres you. idk anymore if we can truely be CLOSE friends. idk if i can tell you anything. cause deep down theres so much i want to tell you but i can't. my lips are seal, my heart is shut. i dont feel comfortable telling you anything when it comes to guys or anything. i told you nothing will happen, maybe i lied. but i said nothing will happen and it hasn't. i gave you my word, i gave you promises, but id ont think i can hold on to it. my heart is sewed shut. i always feel the need to defend you when people say something, its not my job anymore to defend you but i do. i do it anyways. i just wanna burst into tears. if only i can redo homecoming.

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in my life

nobody@vox.com(Winnie) — Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:58:53 -0800

"there are places i remember all my life though some have change, some forever, not for better, some have gone and some remained, all these places have their moments with lovers and friends i can still recall some are dead and some are living, in my life i loved them all. but of all these friends and lovers there's no one that compares to you."

idk. idk why i feel the way i feel. i think i try too hard. i try too hard to show what a great friend i am, but you dont even know. you dont even know me. not one bit. and sadly enough idont know you. your responses to me are meaningless and yet why do i still care enough to help you out and shit. so to see if you actually care i said something and turned it into a joke but for that like minute of silence you didnt say jack shit. idk idk why school makes me feeel ike shit. i dont know why i just hate everything right now. idk i want a vacation right now. and i dont wanna do jack shit. i jsut wanna sit around in my pjs away from the world. someone take me far way. lets run away on a journy. i'll love you forever for it. lets take a few more steps back and walk away from reality. idk why im so angry. i think im just pissed off at you.

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love doesn't have a meaning, when you hurt me this bad

nobody@vox.com(Winnie) — Sun, 02 Nov 2008 17:46:55 -0800

Anyways yeah I realized I'm not very smart when it comes to spraypainting and I'm not very good at puffy paint LMFAO I CALLED IT PAINTYPUFF! yeah my fucken hand keeps smearing it or touching it. :[ its so sad :[ I'm bored now.

so yeah hm every time i think of my birthday, i really want it to be really super fun and like exciting and like fun. but then i dont want to celebrate it at all. idk i rather be at home then go out. actually i want to go to a ferris wheel on my birthday =/ LOL thats all i really want to do. i dont know why but i like ferris wheels :D

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birthday wishlist 11/11

nobody@vox.com(lalala JOANNA) — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 18:21:56 -0700

well here is my birthday wishlist in the order of what i want most. if anything, i'll update it in a couple of days lol

colors: i like glow in the dark, glittery, I LOVE ZEBRA PRINT, i'm not really picky with colors but you guys know what i like to wear and stuff, gotta love my TEAL<3 and hmm idk i like to get stunning colors too, doesn't necessarily have to be something you'd be seeing in my closet, i like to try new things =)

TAO ticket ($52) I don't care how many people chip in or how you get it, as long as I get it lol (=

webcam - i'd like to be able to take more myspace pics LOL but really it's just for when people come over my house we can take silly pictures when we're bored

clothes size S w/ gift receipt or giftcards- preferably from the store forever 21

something cute and simple like : things i can wear off the shoulder, with my boots, dresses or bubbly things ( I LOVE PLAID AND STRIPES!)

http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=fab%5Ffinds&product%5Fid=2053680651&Page=1#
http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=fab%5Ffinds&product%5Fid=2055052953&Page=1#

idk that's all i got so far but you get the idea lol, if i keep browsing then OMFG ima WANT to shop )= but yeah cute and simple things like that. love love LOVEE forever 21! :)

hollister lotion! it smells so sexyy!

accessories: earing studs (for my cartilage), plugs (for my ears), necklaces, bracelets, scarves, gloves, those "granny hats" i think you call them that lol, socks, clutches or nice tote bags. all those cutesy stuff lol

i need chapstickk )= from bath&body or burtsbeeswax

dangly bellyrings - i'm really picky on these. so give it your best shot LOL

MAC or SEPHORA eyeliner pencil (the stick, not an actual pencil pencil) or shades of brown eye shadows (=

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